Caught Between Venus and the Moon

According to astrology, our Moon sign is supposed to govern how we approach emotion.

I should be grateful for the logic of the Gemini Moon within me.

Ahhh, my Gemini Moon…

With my Moon sign being in the element of air, it often feels like my emotions are communicated to me through a series of logical tangents. 

These ‘incessant tangents of reason’ are like a constant stream of thoughts and justifications, each one leading to the next in a logical progression. 

This can make it challenging to navigate my feelings at times, as I often find myself analyzing and rationalizing rather than simply experiencing them.

I am sure it means well; its purpose is served every time it brings some sense to my wayward soul. 

It’s a comforting thought, knowing that my Gemini Moon is there, a steady guide in the tumult of emotions.

Despite the misconceptions about Geminis being two-faced, this is not an accurate representation of this astrological sign’s influence over my feelings. 

It’s a shared frustration, isn’t it? The feeling of being misjudged because of our astrological signs. 

I’m sure many of you can relate to this.

However, having my Moon in the air sign of Gemini makes me feel like I’m constantly battling my heart, a struggle that I’m sure many of you can empathize with.

I know what I feel.

My Gemini moon, at times, takes the reins of my heart and guides it with discipline, ensuring that my emotions are in check.

Perhaps a good way to say it is that it “grounds me” from running with the wild abandon it desires.

It wants to subtract all the color from what I feel and make all that emotion black and white.

Its purpose is to cage the tempest within me so that it can be hemmed in and controlled.

I’m certain that my Moon sign is my steadfast protector, always there to safeguard my emotional well-being.

Our Moon, with its ever-changing phases, is also deeply connected to our intuition, serving as a guide in navigating the turbulent waters of our emotions.

Is this not why so many are inspired by the full Moon?

Some are drawn to the darkness, but many of us discover all that is hidden within us in the void of the light…

What is hidden in these places is often not the shameful, dirty things that we have learned to never divulge.

In fact, once brought to light, they often transform into our greatest gifts.
Either way, with all of my Moon’s benefits, there are times that I wish for its silence.

Admittedly, there are times when I yearn for a respite from the relentless counsel of my Moon sign. 

It can often feel like a persistent voice in my head, ceaselessly urging me to confine my emotions within its rules and limitations.

My heart is inherently rebellious, constantly at odds with the repetitive teachings and lectures of my Moon sign.

It has no qualms about fighting for what it wants.

Let come all the depths of tragedy or the highs of surrender to all of love’s winding twists and turns.

Ultimately, it’s my Venus sign that holds sway. Its decisions, once made, are final.

My Venus sign, which governs the way I love, is in Pisces.
This sign is in the element of water.

Venus, inherently romantic, takes on an almost dreamlike quality when it resides in the sign of Pisces, yearning for a love that transcends all others.

In addition, the element of water does not want to be penned in.

It wants to flow and feel its way through every crevice, no matter how hot the skin may be.

For every vein and breath within the one that is desired, there is a wish to have a transcendent energy exchange.

My Venus Pisces wants the sound of two heartbeats to be timed to a perfect rhythm.

But my Venus doesn’t just want, it aches with a profound need.

It asks for more than just two beings connecting at a surface level.

It craves a synchronicity that is not only deep but also urgent.

It yearns for a tender beating of two hearts unified in passionate love, but then pleads for an intense pounding of what can only be known as a spiritual climax, a yearning that echoes in the depths of my soul.

My Venus in Pisces asks for a star-filled sky that is seaside, where all she can hear is the thunderous waves that mirror and allow all that she feels.

No longer held captive by the restraints of the Moon, the planet that represents emotions and inner self, and its arguments.

Venus wants to get lost in the idea of this fairytale romance with you.

Where you and I are caught in this smoldering heat with locked eyes and what can only be known as a hunger that is primal and reckless.

I have never felt so completely lost.

The frustration of our limitations has made me ache within.

My Moon wants boundaries to keep me safe from you.

Rules to follow so that I understand how to win, IF this is a game we play.

How do I discuss boundaries with you without addressing fears?

How do you wait for someone who is a dream when life has taught you that dreams don’t come true?

My Gemini Moon asks my Venus Pisces,

“What are you doing?

Where could this possibly go?”

My Venus is to blame for being the contradiction that I am.

It causes me to be this way because what it pleads for is entirely opposite of what my Moon wants.

Venus pleads for you to rip away any boundaries between us.

It wants you naked and vulnerable with me as much as I feel naked and vulnerable with you.

I have memorized everything about you; in my before-sleep dreams, countless times, I have slept with you, and your legs, arms, and more were tied up with mine.

I held your stare while I was over you; I have made love to you without ever speaking of love….

We don’t have to say it.

It is felt in my night dreams when you sink into me.

It is felt when you say “my love”…

I am wistful for a raging fire with no bounds of restraint to feel everything I feel for you without the Moon’s incessant voice interrupting these fantasies that long to be fulfilled by your touch.

Even Cronus, the God of time, is confused by what I want.

I ask Cronos to slow down the days to give this body more time with you on this earth.

I want to extend the moments when I finally have you to myself, so that I can feel your fingers in more than just my mind.

Where your breath against my neck is no longer make-believe, and the taste of the salt on your skin is no longer something that I have to go to sleep without.

In the next breath, I am on my knees, begging the gods for the time to pass into the future when it closes the distance between us.

I can’t help but plead,

“When will I see you?

Tell me because the hours do not move fast enough.”

I have been waiting impatiently for your love, my heart aching with the deep longing and hope that it will come to me soon.

The distance between us is more than mere miles, more than just a few hours.

You are away from me, and I wonder if this connection, this bond we share, is nothing more than fantasy.

My soul asks me if it is foolish to be so transparent with you about all that I feel.

I want that.

I want to be uncontained.

I want to be set free by the urgency of your love.

To feel the reciprocity of the intensity that is simmering under the surface of every one of our interactions.

There will be no more typing; instead, it will be your voice and your eyes against my skin that communicate all I desire, enhancing the anticipation of our intimate moments.

Everything will be felt and said in the space of our energy fields, which will magnetically pull our bodies together.

In our story, which I have penned here, a relentless battle rages between my Gemini Moon and my Venus in Pisces, a struggle that defines my emotional landscape.

My Gemini Moon, which seeks to impose structure and rationality on my emotions, often conflicts with the passionate and free-spirited desires of my Venus.

While the Moon desires boundaries and safety, Venus pleads for an uninhibited connection and vulnerability.

Today, it’s Venus that reigns supreme over the Moon.

Ultimately, the yearning for a love that transcends all boundaries — a love that is deep and profound — is what prevails in our story.

Here, I am writing to allow my Venus’s emotional expression to flow freely, unbound by the restrictions of the Moon.

This victory in this story represents a celebration of my soul’s intensity, highlighting the contradictions within me.

It serves as a potent reminder that, regardless of the sound reasoning and advice of my Moon sign in Gemini, the innate longing of my Venus in Pisces for profound connections and passionate bonds will always triumph in the end.