Go to Battle with Me: The Right Relationship Should Always Require Self Development.

I sometimes like to entertain myself.

So, at the risk of sounding cliché, I still have to say it.

I am a lover and a fighter. ;-)

Seriously though.

Please. I am telling you…

Go to battle with me.

What foolishness is this?

Yes.

As silly as it sounds, I want to fight.

For a relationship with me to remain standing, I need you to push me.

I want you to understand that I will find things you can improve, too,
in the same way I always find opportunities within myself.

Time changes our exterior, so shouldn’t it also affect who we are on the inside?

Do you not want someone who wants you to fulfill your potential?

Complacency with yourself will lead to complacency in our relationship.

How naïve were you to think that you had all the answers?

Why have you had the audacity to call me naïve as if you are cursing at me?

That’s right.

I remember.

It isn’t brilliant to believe in something that can not be.

It is because of these beliefs that I stand alone.

Of course, it isn't smart to be naïve!

I don’t care what you say!

There is beauty in being naïve.

There is an innocence that I still want to feel.

Innocence makes you fearless,

even though my heart cries for the stupidity of contemplating those words.

I do, though.

Sigh…, to have a love that makes me forget to be scared.

I want a love that makes me feel something more than this lonely room I have put myself in.

What would that be like?

I remember.

Naïve is beautiful.

I want someone to make me better than I am;

I want a fight-

a fight to make you better than you are.

Is it wrong to want to be with someone who is never satisfied with you and for you to wish never to be happy with the way that someone else is?

I have a restlessness that never goes away.

I need someone who understands this and wants to grow and fight with me.

We need to fight to be more for each other to make us and the world better.

Go to battle with me, against each other, BUT not to fight INSTEAD to improve each other and our lives together.

Where is this man that will stay when I fight him and push him to be better?

Where is the one that wakes up every day NOT content with what is?

Someone I once was in love with told me I should have believed him when he told me who he was.

How does this make sense?

I know he is not who he was yesterday.

Are you who you were yesterday?

I am not.

I will never be content in a relationship with someone who is okay with who they were yesterday or even today.

Perhaps I am naïve.

The universe tells me this is my curse and my blessing.